Help I feel so :( sad!?

I quit my job in retail about 2 1/2 months ago to work in a media company as a receptionist. I thought it wud b excitin but it is just plain boring. Honestly I neva get work! I really miss my retail job & the fun I used to hav there, I hav been given an opporunity to work alongside a fashion stylist part-time unpaid and have to find other part-time work to pay bills. I want to go back to my retail job but I think everyone who works there will think I am an idiot for going back there. My dream is to become a fashion stylist so I dont know why I am so torn over the decision to quit this horrid job, maybe its the money or maybe I am scared of how people will judge me?! I wud luv 2 knw what u all think.