I love him but all he wants is ?

ds guy livs in my apartmnt. im 18 nd he is 23.. 8 mnths ago, i ws in severe dpresn, i noticd ds guy n got atractd towards hm.. v tokd n i told hm abt my felins, bt he sed he is a felingles prsn so jus 2 gt out of dpresn i askd hm 2 spnd tim wd me. v smooched, i gave hm hjs n once v had . i njoyd it n he evn used 2 tok through msgs. v did it agn. v used 2 do it lik evry week. bt he nvr met me outside. i strtd developin felins fr hm bt he strtd takin me fr grantd. stopd txtin, txtd nly wn he wntd . nd due 2 my lonelines, i fel fr lust agn n agn, 6 mnths.. i told hm abt my lv 4 hm, n he didnt evn rply, txtd aftr sm days n i fel fr lust agn. n aftr dt nyt, no txts fr dys, i cntrold maslf bt nt fr lng, so i abusd hm, no rply agn.. nw i mis hm, v c each odr daily. i txtd hm, telin abt hw mch i mis hm n ned hm, bt he didnt rply. i dnt want a relatnshp wd hm bt i wnt my slf respct n cnfidnc bck. evry1 knws dt i am mch bttr dan hm. he is a chain smoker nd drinks a lot. but he is at a good position in hs ofic