Is it bad that i want to be pregnant so bad at 15?

me and my boyfriend of 3 months broke up like 3 weeks ago. he was my first serious relationship and the first guy i was actually in a intimate relationship with. We had four times and i thought i was inlove with him. after finding out he cheated on me we broke up. i hoped to god that i was pregnant.. but then it turned out i wasnt. Then a week and a half after we brke up i had very unprotected with a guy i had just met, and he came inside me a lot. i lied to him and told hi mi was on birth control. is it bad that i would go through this much extreme just for unconditional love? HELP im due for my period in 6 days, and i hope to god im pregnant.